TJ,
I came on this Forum five years ago with high expectations. All of them were met and exceeded. I learned a great deal about the Superstitions and the history of the Southwest as a bonus.
In those five years I have always done everything I could to keep the conversations flowing, new....and interesting. Some got it, and others didn't.
Receiving high praise from some and the scorn of others, I often crossed the line in both directions. Sometimes good and sometimes downright awful.
For me, that just reflects life in general. The important thing is to recognize when you are crossing those (sometimes slightly blurred) lines.
When those times arise, how a person handles the situation often shows their true nature.
While I usually recognized those occasions, I did not always handle them as well as I should have. I have (mostly) admitted those
failures, apologized to the Forum in general, and to individuals as well. Some accepted that with grace.....others, not so gracefully.
As, I believe, you have been here much longer than your eight (?) posts indicate, you would know that I have defended friends and strangers, as well as those who percieved themselves to be my enemies. I believe I was sincere each and evry time.
The members here either loved me or hated me.....I doubt any were indifferent. In both cases I have added to the conversation, which is what any forum is about.
Except for a short period while I was trying to return the Forum to common ground, I have alway placed my name at the bottom of my posts.
"I sense a little sadness and self pity in you."
You are correct about the sadness....but dead wrong about the "self pity".
Take care,
Joe Ribaudo
Says something for a moderated forum....... 
